I held my breath as the scan began. Our nurse wiggled the doppler around to reveal a great big yolk sac with a tiny little bean shape inside.
"The baby looks great!", she says.
For a split second I feel two things - happiness that this first baby is still healthy, and devastation over not seeing the second.
"Oops.", she says. "The BABIES look great."
"Babies?!", I gasp - almost not daring to believe it.
"Babies.", she smiles, as she wiggles the doppler around to reveal the second little one.
There are two little babies in there and they both measured within normal limits and had nice sounding heartbeats. I am officially pregnant with twins. There's no halfway, no 1.5, no downplaying the miracle taking place in my midsection.
Of course, we are not out of the woods by a long shot. At 7 weeks we have at least another 7 to go before I will start feeling secure that these two little blueberries are sticking around. I'm hopeful though, and as long as I can lay my eyes on them once a week until they get nice and sturdy, I think I'll be able to make it through the first trimester with my sanity mostly intact.
I can't say the same for my digestive system! But it's a small price to pay for the double rainbow dangling in front of me. If this really happens, I will feel like the luckiest person in the world.
Come on babies!!! You can do it!!!